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[03 Sep 2004|10:32pm] |
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wow i haven't written in like what seems like forever ok first things first i can proudly say that I am offically back and is currently enrolled at MHS that sounds so fukin great to say dam its unbelievable well so much has happened since last time I posted like I work now and dont laugh I work at the 99cent store by Circut City and thats pretty much where i spend most of my time its like i have no life cuz im always working and I have a new girlfriend and its not Christine can you belive it sometimes its even hard for me to belive it myself but yea I finally did it but dont get me wrong i still love her but its just not gonna work out at the moment maybe in the future u never know her name is eileen shes so great but sometimes it scares me that shes like that if u know what i mean but will see what happens well i'm kinda tired cuz I just got out of work so maybe Ill update soon see everybody on Tue i think I'm like the most excited person going back to MHS out of like every student what a lameass i am but o well cant wait
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| weekend:becky,Bowling,Cops(pigs) |
[07 Jun 2004|09:02am] |
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well this weekend was pretty friday let me see hung out with jake for awhile then came saturday and i was planning to go to erica's thing that got canceled (BUMMER)anways I really didnt have any other plans till Becky called and we decided to hang out we got really fucked up and julia called up to go bowling at like 1 o'clock in the morning it was so fun i haven't been bowling in a long time and i saw a couple of people i havent seen in a long time like both stephines from band there always so fun to be around i thought i was gonna see christine this weeked but she was going to stephine's house and Pearla was going to be there so i really wasn't in the mood for drama which there always is when it comes to christine but i guess you put up with a lot of things when you care about someone.O my gosh yesterday was like the most scariest thing happened ok it was my sister her boyfriend ruben and vicky and we went to go eat so on our way back some cop pulls us over and for no apparent reason to our knowledge and says that one of the break lights of my sister's car isn't working and then my sister's genius boyfriend decided to have a big mouth with them so then they started to badger him about if he had any thing on him like bud or something so finally he got really mad and just stepped out of the car on his own for they can just search him if they dont believe him and they pulled out there guns it was so scary i felt like i was on cops or something like a lame ass i swear we must have been there for about an hour and a half in the fuckin hot ass sun and the only thing i could think about is that fuck, dont these cops have anything better to do like catch and badger real criminals i mean fuck.
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| My grades... |
[03 Jun 2004|08:57am] |
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Bad news kids I dont know if I'm going back to MHS next year cause I'm practically failing every class which totally sucks but maybe I dont know it depends on my dad but any ways I dont think I'm going to that dance instead I think I'm gonna go to battle of the bands at Chino High that sounds more my speed.i dont know exactly whose gonna come but I know me and Selina are gonna be there mos def.As of this weekend I'm not sure what I'm gonna do i think i might see christine but i dont know we talked for a little bit but we hung up and she called me back but i fell asleep.Dam lets see yesterday selina came over we hung out smoked a little and then her cuz came to pick us up and we went to Denny's it was so fun good times good times I think I'm supposed to cut her hair today not sure I hope I do Ok
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| should i go to the dance...??? |
[02 Jun 2004|09:05am] |
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i dont know but today seems like its gonna be a good day. It was weird cause i woke up all happy and hyper and everything just seemed to be working the hair the make-up and even the jeans which is a very rare occasion and today i'm soposed to go to the mills (the mall) with jake ,selina,and april to go look for what shirt were gonna wear to sates(excuse the spelling!)I know were barley having ours i think Montebello has theirs in March I really dont know if I should go because I think to myself me at a school function thats preposterous but in a weird way I want to go but what shirts do me and jake wear any suggestions?
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| Back to school |
[01 Jun 2004|09:08am] |
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Ok this weekend was totally fun I went to my dads house on Friday as planed and just chilled with him which was pretty cool i really wasn't planning to go to Erica's party cause i was already at my dad's and he would never let me go but then my sister comes to save the day and she covered for me and said that i was with her ahh... i love my sister she can be so cool when she wants to be.Erica's party was so fun i met all these people and we were all dancing it was bomb as james would say ahh...poor thing james past out at erica's it was so funny my sister picked me up after it got radded around 12ish ERICA I GOT TO GIVE IT UP TO YOU THAT WAS A BOMB PARTY.On sunday i was at my sister's house it was fun then i went back to my dad's house.Now i swear i can never have a normal perfect time ever something always has to kill it and this time it was so sad my dog at my dad's thats like been around forever got sick and we had to take her to the vet it was so sad i hope shes ok i hope they dont put her to sleep but anyways i didn't see christine this weekend she went camping with her family which was good she needs to spend time with them.all last week we really weren't talking much but she called me on friday and we worked everything out so were ok now.so now its tuesday and i'm back here at colony and it totally sucks cause all i could think about is going back to montebello.
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| Party or Dad |
[28 May 2004|09:44am] |
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OK now I'm very skeptical on what I should do this I haven't seen my dad in awhile but theres Erica's party which sounds totally fun but its been like a month since I've seen him so i dont know. knowing the way i am I'll probably go to the party but I feel bad. O my gosh It's been 2 whole days since i last talk to christine thats some crazy shit I remember when we could'nt even go like 3 hours without talking to each other but things have changed on both ends.jake and i r like whatever I'm trying not to get serious with him because im moving back to montebello and that would totally suc so i guess. lets see plans for today if i dont go to my dad's today i'll probably chill with some girl i'm sort of talking to carmen and maybe go drink it up and go to the mills.
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| And Just Party Hardy Like u Just Dont Care... |
[27 May 2004|09:09am] |
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well haven't posted in a awhile. james's birthday was last saturday it was fun but I feel bad.it really was no fun for him which totally sucks. anywho, christine well I dont know I saw her and she was being great but shes just so dam moody.I really hate to say this but she is seriously pushing me farther and farther away from her but I guess if thats the way its gonna be then so be it.Is anyone going to erica's party on Saturday its gonna be bomb as james would say cant wait
O Yeah- update on jenny shes doing oK but still not cooperating but she says shes gonna try cause her mom is already complaining about the money so if she acts right she can maybe come back in another month hopefully I LOVE JENNY
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| She found out |
[14 May 2004|09:31am] |
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well i know christine isnt dumb and I know sooner or later she was gonna find out about me and Ileen talking but she swears me and I ileen r together and if I was its not like me and her r together so whats it to her. the only reason why she said she was all mad is because Ileen is her friend she never thinks about what she does to me its always what I do never her that gets me so fuckin mad about her well im not gonna say I'm totally innocent with Ileen but Christine herself has or should i say had a girlfriend till Saturday and she has no right to be mad she said she never wants to talk to me again i would of thought i would have been all devistated but i'm sick of all this constant drama and i hate that i always have to compete with someone that likes christine and always having to worry about if shes cheating on me because she does that very well and quite often which really sucks on my part and her excuse is o she kissed me or i was drunk u know iv'e never shed so many tears for someone in my life but i guess its just over i mean dont get me wrong i love her and i will always love her but were just not gonna work out and like i said yesterday its time to let go...
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| Its Time... |
[13 May 2004|08:57am] |
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i really dont know about christine anymore were both going in different directions and its just not the same anymore so i think its time to let her go i really dont want to cause i still really love her with all my heart but i think its time.
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| Montebello Here I Come |
[06 May 2004|09:09am] |
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tomorrow is the first time i'm gonna step foot at MHS since i got sent out to bunk Ontario I'm so excited i cant wait till tomorrow its gonna be bomb as james would say. i really dont know where james and I are going i know theres some straight-edge gig in Montebello but thats not usually my thing if u know whaT i mean does anyone know of any gigs tomorrow that aren't straight-edge
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| massive headache |
[05 May 2004|09:05am] |
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well i haven't updated since that party last Friday and it was so much fun I didn't expect for so many people to come i guess they really dont many house parties out here cause I've been out here for almost a whole school year and there has only been like lame kick backs o but that friday i got my first ticket that sucks the cop was such an ass he was all like right out of the academy and reading from a book he was so uptight he wrote me up for after curfue hours i have to go to court at the beginning of june so that sounds exciting. anyways that night i think i drank more than humanly possible I had a hang over like all that weekend and like this headache that hasnt gone away since saturday i think i finished the Advil bottle yesterday and I still feel like shit but all in all It was all worth it i had the best time with jake i really dont know whats gonna happen with that i like him but then theres christine and everyone and their mother knows my heart belongs to that girl but... she is techniclly with someone right know but it still feels like or should i say we act like were still together which I dont mine but sometimes I feel like the other girl and if shes having her fun why cant I but the thing is I feel guilty and not only that i love her. o yea i finally made my decision to move back home and go back to Montebello next year i dont know if thats the right one but thats what i want to do
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| Random Gig |
[30 Apr 2004|12:47pm] |
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today i'm so excited today is like the first time I'm going to a real gig out here thanks to me My friend Terry is a band and there so good but they only play at lame places like the coffee bean thats so lame and you cant even do anything there but my friend april's house is really big so were throwing it there hope everything works out and it doesnt get radded that fast.
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[29 Apr 2004|11:24am] |
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well the past few couple of days have been pretty boring Iv'e been trying to do the good student thing I really dont know how i use to do it but if I want to go back to MHS then I guess I'm gonna have to somehow. dam its been 15 days till jenny left and i feel so lost without her out dont know if I could go any longer without her i dont know, but on a happier note christine is being OK but n Monday she was kind of moody cuz it was hot i think shes getting kind of sick my poor babe I hope she dosnt get sick like last time I felt so bad for her it was so funny cuz i made her carry her medicine in her backpack when we went out to gigs dam I love that girl. I luv Christine
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| I Heard from Jenny |
[23 Apr 2004|12:44pm] |
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Yesterday I was in a bitchy mood for like no apparent reason I even in a bad mood with my babe. I dont know why and it makes me feel worse because she is leaving to go camping for three whole days. the best thing about yesterday is that I heard from jenny's mom and she told me that jenny said that she misses me and loves me and that shes Ok which makes me feel a lot better because I was really worried if she got there safe.I LUV CHRISTINE
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| I Miss Jenny |
[22 Apr 2004|08:58am] |
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Well yesterday was OK I went to lame ass Colony like any other day its pretty sad how my academic career is turning out, its like when I do go to class I just sit there its pretty pathetic but all this week we have those star testing things and its like the day just feels so much longer its like it never ends and I'm in 3rd period forever I cant stand that teacher she bugs the shit out of me she always wants to know what I'm doing and where I was the day before fuck apparently not there. Anywayz after school Jake and I and a couple other people went to the mall I cant stand that mall the "Mills" its like a big fuckin circle its irritating after that we went to go eat at some restaurant that was fun.I got home around eight fifty or some thing like that and when I got home the mother started trippin that lady needs to kick back. as soon as I walked in and talked to my mom the phone rang and it was James of course so thank you James for saving me from another lecture.It feels so weird without Jenny I feel like empty I guess I never realized how much of an impact she has on me and just my everyday life I mean I use to talk to that girl 24hrs a day basiclly and now its like she dosnt exists. I feel really bad because I guess I took her and her being there for granite. me and Christine on the other hand are doing exceptionally good which makes me happy but I still miss Jenny. I miss Jenny
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| Jenny's Gone |
[19 Apr 2004|08:31am] |
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Okay the last time I talked to my best-friend jenny was wednesday I thought it was kind of strange that she didn't call on thursday but I thought she was talking to Stephine or something but i didn't think much about it then Friday came around and I called her and her dad told me that Jenny had been taken to some boot camp but he didn't want to tell me where. I always knew that Jenny's mom was crazy and she always threatens Jenny about boot camp or shes gonna send her to the police or somethig lame like that but this time she finnaly went through with it its hard to belive. The next day my cell phone starts to go off saying I have an IM and I look at it and its Jenny's screen name I got all excited thinking its her and she access to a computer but it was her brother telling me what had happen and where she had gone they had taken to Mexico now who the hell sends their child to Mexico out of all places Mexico i dont know how that lady can call her self a decent mother i mean she wasn't even there when they too her and her mom sweares that Jenny is a hardcore addict and gets drunk everyday I mean Jenny is no angel She does smoke and drink when we go out but seriously who dosn't and not only that her mom dosnt accept the fact that shes gay that just fucked up maybe if her mom was there half the time and actually spent time with her daughter she wouldn't do half the things she does and know that Jenny's not a little girl any more her mom wants try and be a mom but jenny doesn't want her dont you think its a litte late and shes makes her do every thing around the house and dosnt even appreciate what she does she just criticize and her dad is there for her but not always he has problems of his own I feel so bad for her and I love her with all my heart and i'm gonna miss her so much they want to sed her away for a year i dont know what I'm gonna do i feel so sad I wish i could of said bye or something its like shes just gone I feel so empty inside my little loud Jenny isn't around for I can tell her all the problems i have with my babe or to joke around with.I Love Jenny
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well today is a random day I dont know the hell is gonna happen later I can either go to my dads and go to a gig and see christine but I would go with Cindy of course or stay out here in bunk Ontario and go out with Geno and Landon and probably go to the mall or something and if I'm not mistaken I think some band is playing at the coffee bean tonight i dont know.Well yesterday Christine was being ok we weren't arguing or anything so thats good. Yesterday was a month that i havent see her I miss her so much its not even funny I think the last time I saw her was a couple days before my birthday and she was being really stupid so that sucked but hopefully i get to see her soon because i really miss my babe. I LUV CHRISTINE
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| I love Christine |
[15 Apr 2004|09:23am] |
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dam yesterday the greatest jake bought so much it was great!! I feel so much better its not even funny.My babe was being so adorable yesterday I love her so much. She so cute james saw her at MHS yesterday I wish I could of seen her. I LUV CHRISTINE.
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| Bad Idea or Good Idea |
[14 Apr 2004|09:15am] |
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Well I didn't go with jake yesterday he was sort of annoying me but I'm suppose to go with him to Pomona for a CANDY run if you know wat I mean I THINK i'm going to start up again because this sober thing is just not working out call me crazy but my grades where a lot better when I was on then they are now I pretty much have F's which is pretty sad considering I used to have a relativley good GPA. Christine well I dont know we really didn't talk much but I dont know anywayz I cant wait till 6th period to ditch and go get some CANDY. Yea Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Jake is Lame |
[13 Apr 2004|08:49am] |
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well today seems to a better day then yesterday I talked to Christine yesterday it was kind of weird at first but it was ok at the end well today I'm supposed to go some where with jake after school I think were going to the mall with some of his other friends I dont know about that one. Last time I met some of his other friends they were pretty lame but so is Jake but thats what makes him so adorable sometimes.I think I'm going to buy plugs. I LUV CHRISTINE
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